INSOMNIA

New Addiction ? (Shit, no !)

2011-08-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

OMG ! Assignments, reports, and projects have doubled over since I came to this so-called isolated place. There are almost-infinite topics I need to cover for all 4 subjects that I think they are far beyond my capability to learn for such short period of time – a year.

*sigh* <-- that’s about all I could do year round – groaning and complaining, I still have to settle everything before the real thing came – PSPM, or in other word, Final Examination for Semester 1 -- the examination that will decide whether I get to continue my study here or not.

I always get this eerie feeling and goose bumps whenever I think about it. So, to take my mind off of this muddled feeling, I played video games. And right now, I’m currently addicted to Harvest Moon: More Friends of Mineral Town, introduced by my sister. Like it or not, I wasted more than 5 days in a row playing this stupid thing without revising anything ! Regret? Hell yes !!!

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SEXIST? Naayy..

2011-04-09T15:22:00.000+08:00

GIVE ME A BOOK WRITTEN BY A MALE AUTHOR AND I’LL FINISH IT UP IN NO TIME. I’m trying not to be overly sexist since I am a female myself but I would happily read any novel written by male authors instead of females since most female authors who write about vampires, werewolves and the like tend to be erotic at times(apparently not suitable for children) but sadly, me; the one whose mind had been tainted since 14 years of age when I first picked up Laurell K. Hamilton books, Anita Blake Vampire Hunter series, has no way of returning the innocent mind of a young normal teenage girl.

I stopped reading LKH’s books when my slow and dumb mind had some success of figuring out that I have been all these times guiltily indulging myself in porn.

After years of reading vampires/werewolves/fairies novels that very much never failed to include eroticism, I gave up in the end and instead found myself other genres and ones that are really worth all what’s left of my childhood time as a loser geek; Brandon Sanderson, Brandon Mull, C.S. Lewis, J.R.R. Tolkien, Rick Riordan, Peter V. Brett, Garth Nix, Stephen King, Thomas E. Sniegoski, Tamora Pierce, Eoin Colfer, Trudi Canavan, Darren Shan etc. Yes, they are all males except maybe a few.

In conclusion, I passionately loathe romance novels. It always left me in total state of complete abhorrence and feeling very much wretched. Well, that’s an understatement.

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Road-Travel(North)+[DESTINATION-->Kodiang]

2011-01-22T10:39:00.001+08:00

WHETHER I'M OUT OF MY MIND or simply I just don't give a shitload about the upcoming exam.
It was 2 days before I had to take the Engineering Drawing Exam.
Mother was feeling damn bored so she decided to take me with her to some random place.
Pretty much like road travelling.
We stopped at different places.
Places I never think of going.
I took pictures though there's nothing interesting enough to pose in them.

Apple iPod Nano

2010-12-15T03:46:00.001+08:00

It's an Apple iPod Nano I bought using my own money!
It's pretty cute.
It comes with other different colours too.
Such as blue and white.
But I would prefer silver as it looks more modern and elegant(yea, right!).
The memory size is 4GB.

Soon as I brought it home, it's already full! Hhaha..
I put all the songs that I love.

The earphone has broke.
You can see on the photo how the wire has broke!
I desperately had to get a new pair.

Listening to music is my only escapism.
Running from the reality.
Indulging myself in my own little world of dream and fantasy.
I can't wait for the SPM examination to finish.
I seriously need to get a job.
Oh, and a life too.

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Secret Admirer(?)

2010-12-14T10:23:00.001+08:00

This morning I was quite bored and I have nothing to do.
So, to kill the time I packed my stuff as an early preparation to move soon.
I found something in the box where I kept my souvenirs and memorabilia.
It's a birthday present from someone.
It's that yellow teddy bear from Living Cabin.
I don't know who gave me that.

On my birthday at school, after recess when I stepped into class,
I saw my table was full of birthday presents.
They were all from my friends.
I was quite touched because we aren't that close.
Here's the picture of presents I received from them.

They're not much because my classmates did everything on the last minute.

So, the same day, after I just got back from the toilet, I saw a plastic gift on my seat!
I opened it and, yes, the yellow teddy bear! There's a card along with it.
The person wish me this and that in the card but doesn't reveal who he is.

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Canned Sardines

2010-12-11T17:18:00.001+08:00

Woh~
I tried cooking but it ended up tasted like shit.
And it's only canned sardines!!
I tried adding some water, salt and more sauce.
It's friggin spicy!
Man, I hate living on my own.
Being independent, so to speak.
Anyhow, I won't give up to learn cooking though.

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Need Money

2010-12-10T05:23:00.002+08:00

I wanted to change my guitar strings as soon as possible.
I need to buy the oil for the strings too.
And also buy the case so I can keep the guitar away from dust.

Hope my temporary tutor still keep the set of strings with him.
He help me bought them so I have to pay him.
Cost around RM13 I think.

I'm really short on cash right now.
My mom said that I can do and buy anything I want as long as I'm using my own money.
Well, that's what motivate me to search for a part-time job.
But I'm currently unemployed right now.
So I can't really buy anything.

I will be keeping tracks to practice guitar from now.

The list of songs that I wanted to practice this holiday:-

Because I'm Stupid by SS501
Faith by Sevencollar T-Shirt
Howl's Moving Castle (Jinsei no Merry Go Round)
La Romanesca by Napoleon Coste
Pirates of the Caribbean Main Theme (He's A Pirate)
Romanza
Seize The Day by A7X
Snowflower (I'm Sorry, I Love You Theme)
Winter Sonata Main Theme

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Lost Kittens

2010-12-08T14:04:00.002+08:00

Three of the kittens are missing!
I will not forgive anyone who took them.
I will condemn them to death!
Poor the mother.
She looks so sad and forlorn these days.
She didn't even eat!
I wonder how long will she recover..

Freedom

2010-12-08T14:02:00.001+08:00

Hoho~

My mom went to Langkawi Island.

So there's just me and my sister at home.

She didn't left much food tho.

All we have in the kitchen are junk foods.

So yeah, after 2 years of limiting those type of foods, now we can consume them so freely~ Yeah~

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My Guitar

2010-12-07T19:05:00.002+08:00

I have bought my first guitar for over a year now
And I still haven't made any progress
Well, I actually tried playing it once in a blue moon
I'm too busy
Plus, I'm staying at hostel
and we aren't allowed to bring guitar there
or it will be confiscated
So I only tried practicing it when I'm at home
And right now the high E have broken
And I can't play it at all....

I know nothing about guitar
But I love the sound of it
I even downloaded thousands of guitar tabs..
Anyway, the big exam that decides my future -- SPM is coming to an end
I still have 2 more papers left then I'll be free!! Yay~
I will practice the guitar till my fingers bleed!!~
Hoho~

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MY GOALS

2010-09-17T12:23:00.003+08:00

~Get 10A's in SPM 2010 (!!)
~Lose 10-15kg within 3 month, starting from October 2010 [current weight: 55, height: 160]
~Learn French, Arabic, Korean, Japanese, Urdu, Farsi
~Get degree in Laws + Automotive Engineering (either one of those or both)
~Master AutoCAD (able to use 3D, design, building, etc)
~Get rid of scars
~Learn to cook
~Learn to sew, knit
~Get taller
~Become more religious
~Learn guitar, piano, keyboard, organ, violin
~Learn to swim, tennis

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MAY OUR FRIENDSHIP LAST

2010-05-22T07:04:00.002+08:00

This is photo of me and my freak classmates.

And seriously, they really are freaks.

Well, including me.

We are all freaky, in our own way.

We are so noisy and behaved badly(in terms of naughty).

We all made so much noise that it could be heard from below.

And mind you, we’re on the third floor XD

We heard stories and rumors saying that all the teachers refuse to teach us anymore after a year of teaching us.

Teachers that have taught us last year(2009) wanted to be exchanged to another class.

Well, they got what they wanted now.

So long, *%#@!*#!!!

For this year(2010), which is our second and also our last year(yay, we’re freaky seniors!), teachers that are currently teaching us are mostly forced to teach us in the first place.

They got no other options. So, they just fcukin followed orders from the gay principal.

And some of them from last year thought they are unlucky to cope with us yet for another 10 months!! Well, at least that’s what I thought.

We’re not actually that bad.

We’re just noisy and naughty, that’s all.

It’s normal for high school kids/seniors to play and enjoy and acts crazy.

Or else, we will loose our mind cause of all the constant pressure and tension.

Others saw us differently, however.

Or more accurately, the elders.

They’re old-timers.

Maybe that’s why they just don’t get us.

Well, duh.

WHAT-EVER.

RIVET

2010-05-01T05:49:00.001+08:00

These are photos of me and my classmates doing riveting work.

We volunteered to fix the damaged goalpost.

We didn’t actually did the work from the beginning though.

We were just only helped to finish the unfinished work by our seniors at that time.

To hell with the seniors.

We actually get the credits for ourselves. Ha-ha

Anyway, it was quite fun.

It was new to me.

At least now I know the steps of riveting.

OUR BABY

2010-04-29T07:01:00.001+08:00

I Love Her.

I love her so much,

that it’s hard for me to accept her death.

She died young,

because we didn’t take good care of her.

We discovered her death early in the morning.

We all mourned for her.

Especially my mother.

She cried.

I’ve never seen her cried like that before.

Before she died,

we all know that she was sick.

My father said he’d bring her to the vet,

but he always been busy,

and her death was caused by his delay.

Okay, fine.

It was actually our fault.

Nevertheless, we still love her.

I recalled some memories of her.

I remembered one time,

that she brought back one of our neighbours’ shoelaces,

how she carried it between her teeth,

like a dog carried a bone.

So adorable.

We call her BABY.

And she will always remain in our memories.

LOVE

2010-04-28T04:10:00.002+08:00

I-T-A-L-Y

I-TRUST-AND-LOVE-YOU

H-O-L-L-A-N-D

HOPE-OUR-LOVE-LASTS-AND-NEVER-DIES

L-I-B-Y-A

LOVE-IS-BEAUTIFUL-YOU-ALSO

C-A-N-A-D-A

CUTE-AND-NAUGHTY-ACTIONS-DEVELOP-ATTRACTION

UNCONSCIOUS MIND

2010-04-24T15:37:00.001+08:00

Today I learned

that it’s true what everyone say

that you can ask anything from half-awake people.

You can ask just about anything from them

and you’ll get whatever you want straight away.

Answers.

Stuff.

Anything.

For example,

you wakes them up slowly

and ask money from them

and they just give it to you

before they went back to sleep

and forgot about whatever they just did.

Well, that’s what happened to me.

I just remembered it now.

No wonder I ran short on cash lately. 

In Vain

2009-11-01T18:57:00.002+08:00

Aigoo~

It's exam week again.
Final exam.

And today was Chemistry.

Last night I stayed up late.
All for the sake of studying and revision.
And it all ended up in vain.

Yea, you guess it right.
I can't fucking answer any of the questions.
The questions was completely, utterly out of the topics that I read!
This is horrible.
A complete disaster.

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Great. Just Great.

2009-08-30T07:32:00.003+08:00

Sunday morning.
I just got back from school.
No wonder I didn't frickin see a single soul..it was actually still HOLIDAY.
But there I was -- all fresh and ready to start a new day after a week of holiday only to find out that I should sleep at home in the first place.
This is totally...SUCK.
(and embarrassing..)

Going Down

2009-08-15T01:58:00.006+08:00

At the edge.

I'm feeling pretty down.

Wasted yet another precious weekend, doing I don't know what.

Haven't managed to study anything this weekend.
I was extremely dead lazy.
Haven't completed the drawing that Syif requested.
I didn't manage to finish anything.
Planning to put aside more time to press my face to some books tonight.
Don't know why but I'm burning the midnight oil these days.

Malay Language exam was suck last Thursday.
Totally suck.
And about six of my classmates didn't come to school because they was sick.
Get well soon peeps.

Dreaming to get lost in the world of arts and music and never get out.

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Hope He Won't Remember

2009-08-12T19:29:00.012+08:00

Pretty awkward and embarrassing day at school XD

Here's the story.

We had to send the Physics projects(PEKA/folio). Something about the extension of a spring. I almost finished it but without the graph paper, I can't do anything about it -- I don't have any graph paper.

Apparently, Pikachu has already finished her graph and Eff borrowed it(to copy of course).

After quite a long time, Pikachu wants her paper back.

She asked, "Eff, where's my graph? I need to make some correction..."

Eff gave a dumb face and started to search for her graph under so many books.

Looking bewildered, Eff shouted, "Hey H!! Remember the graph paper that you just crumpled??! Where was it??"

There is a guy in my class.
His name is H.
His mouth was like a fawkin radio I tell you -- talking non-stop. I can't recall when was the last time he was quiet..).

He usually came to me and Pikachu's place(he wants to copy our work).

Anyways,

looking blank, H asked, "What paper? Oh...that."

"What do you mean by that? Where is it? I think it's Pikachu's graph paper!"

H walked to the dustbin and retrieved the paper. He smoothed back the paper and gave it to Pikachu, "Is this yours?"

When Pikachu took it back, she said, "Damnit man! It's mine! Now I had to do it again!"

Eff came and said, "H, it's your fault! Why'd you throw it away?"

H looked kinda guilty but a smartass is always a smartass (means he still looked arrogant and conceited).

He said, "What? Why me? It's your fault! I asked who's paper is that but no one answered!"

Pikachu, looking bewildered, "WTF??! Just because no one minded you, why the fawk did you throw it away for??! Or are you just plain stupid??!"

H surrendered and give his book of graph papers to her(wow, I don't have any~ I want one~).

H said, "There, take one."

Pikachu declined it because she was too angry and took out her spare graph paper(apparently, that was her last one T_T)
I looked at the graph paper book longingly.

After quite a very long time, Physics period almost ended(10 mins more).

I said, "Omo~ Pikachu! Do you have any graph paper left?"

"No. Why don't you asked it from H?"

"No! He is too loud! I'm afraid he will not give it~!" Unfortunately, it was already too late.

She called H.

H turned around and asked, "What?"

Too avoid any embarrasment, I said loudly, "Gimme a graph paper!"

H smirked and threw the stupid graph book in front of me on my table. He said coolly, "I knew it! I was actually wondering when you'll gonna say it."

"............."

BI.ATCH.

After he said that, the atmostphere was suddenly so fawkin hot. I closed my face with both of my hands while Pikachu covered both of our faces with her long brown excercise book.

We both squealed. In embarrassment.

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This Ain't What I Want.

2009-08-10T22:26:00.004+08:00

I'm fawkin tired tonight.
Feeling a little bit weird too.
Hope I won't get H1N1.
Believe me, it ain't good.
Not good at all.

Anyways, workshop was pretty okay today, I guess.
I get to continue with the project that I'm currently on.
(Even though I couldn't do welding nor AutoCAD but...I'm cool.)

Shall go study for Add Maths now.

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Workaholic

2009-08-04T17:06:00.005+08:00

It's exam week yet again.

Exam's in a week and I'm really disappointed with what little revision that I had done for now. Hell, you can say that I didn't even do nothing! I'm too lazy to study -- don't have any motivation at all. Well, who could stand studying alone day after day?

I need at least a study group. And someone who could tutor me. I have to admit, I'm a pretty slow-learner. It takes a lot for me to catch up something. Even though I listened very close to the teachers, I never understood a single thing! And in the end, I always had to turn to Pikachu and ask her to teach me.

My other friends are staying at hostel. It's pretty hard going to a semi-boarding high school.

I'm cramming from 8pm to 1am. 5 hours every night for 8 days in a row. At least that was what I planned on doing starting today. Hopefully it will work out.

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May You Rest in Peace

2009-07-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

Damn. I almost cried a river. Prison Break 4 has finally ended. I think there will be no more Micheal Scofield considering that he's dead. Sara Tancredi is free. Lincoln Burrow's free. Alexander Mahone is free. Sucre is free. And most importantly, Micheal Scofield is free at last. They're all free. May you rest in peace, Micheal Scofield.

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Just My Luck

2009-07-28T00:34:00.008+08:00

Najmi asked for my help again. He wants me to buy a pack of instant noodles for him. And of course he gave me the money. I declined to help Muhaimin since he wants me to buy him a pack of Marlboro Light for him. Fawk. You wish. Help him and I will definitely get in an ass deep trouble.

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Procrastinator

2009-07-27T06:24:00.004+08:00

I never meant to procrastinate, but it is in my blood from the beginning. I cannot change it even with such strong willpower. After all, you cannot change what is in your blood, right?

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RE: I Can Read It

2009-07-23T19:28:00.012+08:00

I can read it , can You?

if yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too. Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs roepst it.

ONLY REPOST IF YOU CAN READ

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Happy Burpday(to me~)!

2009-07-18T02:28:00.010+08:00

I just wished my classmate, Moo-iz a.k.a Cik Embun, Happy Birthday. Well, sort of. I actually said ‘Happy Burpday~!’

Then someone wished me Happy Birthday too…! That was quite unexpected. His name is Budin, I think. I just met him at Yahoo IM. Well, anyways, I really appreciate that. A lot. He’s the first one to wish me. And I think he’s going to be the last one also. *sigh* Thanx my little Miao Miao Baby~!

Moo-iz’s birthday was 17th July and mine was 18th July. What a beautiful coincidence, eh?

It was still 2:30am. 18th July has just started. And I hope something good will happen today.

I will update this post soon!

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UPDATE
(19th July-2:30pm)

Very nice.

I ate instant noodles and two bowls of ramen for my birthday. How much better my pathetic life could be?

I usually cried on my birthdays. No wish. No presents. No cakes. But weirdly on my 16th birthday, no single tears came out. Maybe because I’m starting to realize I actually don’t deserve anything after all. Well, it’s my fault for putting too much hope. Everything is my fault. LOL

My sweet 16 ...
was actually bitter

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Countdown

2009-07-11T17:47:00.006+08:00

If you're sitting next to someone who annoys or irritates you on a plane, I have the perfect suggestion for you to try.

I've forgotten where I found this little sick joke. But you could give it a try just for fun.

What you'll need:-

1. A laptop with its case(in black).
2. Professional outfit like a black coat, tuxedo, or something like that.

Steps:-

1. Open your laptop case.
2. Take out your laptop.
3. Boot it.
4. Make sure the annoying person can see the screen.
5. Sigh loudly and tilt your head backwards.
6. Open this flash file: COUNTDOWN

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Sekolah Menengah Teknik Alor Setar [Old Photos]

2009-06-26T03:18:00.009+08:00

Ha ha. . This is funny(kind of).

It was around 3 o'clock in the morning and I'm surfing the internet aimlessly. So, I decided to Google my school and see if there's anything I can find.

What I found really disappoint me though. My school, Sekolah Menengah Teknik Alor Setar or in English, Alor Setar Technical School(Astech) apparently doesn't have their very own website. They depends on geocities or cyberlinq. And the site was so awful and oldschool that I can't bear on visiting them again!

The last update was like, 3 years ago? Ha ha . . That's like, truly pathetic. I know that it was so not easy to create a website but can't they at least modernise it and perhaps do something more fresh and up-to-date?

However, all of those website thingy doesn't really matter to me anyway. What matters the most is the quality of the students. I am really proud to be one of the lucky chosen students of my school. I am proud to be an Astech.

Here are some old photos that I found in my school websites. It's not that bad, really. There's been a lot of changes now. I will try to post my latest school photos when I get the chance.

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How To Download Youtube Video

2009-06-25T18:32:00.007+08:00

Firstly, open YOUTUBE.com. Search for video that you want to download. Then, in the URL box, change from 'youtube' to 'voobys'.
For example >>

from >>
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJoZRWHRli8

to >>
http://www.voobys.com/watch?v=cJoZRWHRli8

Easy. Just change the word youtube.

Click DOWNLOAD VIDEO in the green box. But first, you must download Flash Player below the green box.

After a few seconds, a pop-up window will appear. Choose 'Save File'. Then, click OK.

After the download finished, rename the file but do not erase the text '.flv'. For example, rename your video from 'video.flv' to 'shuffle.flv'. Then, drag the video to the screen of the FLV Player. Enjoy!

P/S : If you have problems in downloading or still don't get my instructions, just tell me and I will try my best to help you(if I can! ;P).

Boring school days

2009-06-22T17:59:00.005+08:00

IT was around 9am and the teacher aren't coming in. The boys just hanging around and gossiping(yes, boys DO gossip among themselves. In fact, they just loooovvvvee doing it!).

Some of the boys were actually studying(wow, studying? Very rare sight indeed).

Some(who got nothing better to do) went to a group to another, nosing in other people's conversation.

Some boys decided to create their own little group, huddled together at the far corner of the class. I don't know what they were talking though it seemed very suspicious.

Some(including me) who preferred their valuable alone-time stayed glued to their own cosy place. Well, actually, screw that. It was so not fawking cosy at all! More like in a disco though. It was so loud and hot. No wonder my class was acknowledged as the most messed up students in school by the teachers! Well, being the alien that I am, I actually DID managed to take some beauty nap.

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Crushed

2009-06-21T20:52:00.007+08:00

Today's exam had been Mathematics. It was the last papers for this mid-year exam. It was such a bad luck(Well, it's not like I believe in luck anyways). I thought I could answer the papers with ease but I guess I was totally wrong. I've already learnt the first three chappies in my previous school and I opened the papers with full confidence but in the end, every self-confidence and judgment of mine crashed. Just like that.

After school, I decided to walk just for the sake of it. A neighbour of mine, which apparently also a senior at my school, stopped his motorcycle and jokingly asked me if I wanted a ride home. Such a sweet smile he had. He asked me who's picking me up and I answered, "My mom." Then off he goes...*sigh* D.amn. Why don't he kept an extra helmet??! ;>

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Stupid Guy(or is it I'm the stupid one??)

2009-06-20T11:40:00.012+08:00

So I was on MSN IM this morning with some guy that I hardly know. Hell, I didn't even know his name! But we had quite a very pleasant conversation. I'm looking forward to exchange some words with him some other time. Here's how it goes >>

______________________________________

6/20/2009 (10:34:51 AM-10:52:59 AM)

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben <<< him
hi

Yun-jin <<< me
hello

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
mind intro?

Yun-jin
...

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
?

Yun-jin
what?

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
mind intro==???!??!

Yun-jin
y

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
do u wan intro orn ot

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
duwan den say

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
dun y y y

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
making me angyr oni

Yun-jin
pshhh..whatever. NO

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
OK GET LOST DEN....HATE FREAKING PPL WHO DUN INTRO SELF N BEING SO SELFISH

Yun-jin
NO I AM NOT FREAKIN SELFISH. YOU A.R.E.

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
whatever

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
i dun talk wif stranger who i duno

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
get lostn ow

♥♡♥[HCS]-BeN ♥♡♥[MVP]x|ao-Ben
bye

Yun-jin
BYE

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So that's how our sweet conversation went. I didn't plan on talking to him again though(nor would I apologize!).

You see, the blame goes to me. Because I didn't intro myself like what he wanted. If you read carefully, after he said 'mind intro?', apparently the thick skull of mine couldn't understand what it really means so that's why I wrote '...'! So that's how everything started to turn out bad. If I didn't be THAT ego and instead ask him what does he meant, this wouldn't happened.

Muahahah~ D.amn. It's humiliating. I hope he won't found this blog...I would totally kill myself. ;> Should I apologize and explain to him? Or should I not?

"I'll send you a loveletter, my dear.
Do you know what that is?
It's a bullet, straight from my gun to your heart."

I suck at Engineering Drawing

2009-06-16T15:17:00.005+08:00

Today was the exam for Malay Language and Engineering Drawing. I'm pretty satisfied with my Malay Language papers. Engineering Drawing(ED) on the other hand was pretty much suck! I didn't get to finish all the questions! There are 8 questions and the time given was 2 hours. D.amn. I think I'm not going to get an A for ED anymore. last April tests for ED, I got 78%(A2). That's not bad at all because an A is still an A, right? I hope I won't get bad grades this time.

At school today was not that bad actually. I realized all of us can get friends whenever we wanted to. All we have to do was just to talk. That's all. But do I want to talk? No.

Encounter

2009-06-15T17:17:00.007+08:00

today we got history and mechanical engineering studies exams. all i can say is..FUCK. i messed up everything. i can't even fucking answer a single question!! my mind seemed pretty blur. i don't know what to think. i don't know what to do. hell, i didn't even know what the fuck i'm doing right now!

the exam for today ended at 2:00pm. i called my mom to pick me up. i waited for quite some time(i'm not a patient person, really!) so i decided to just walk.

after quite some time of walking, i saw a guy walking in the opposite direction from me. gosh, i was speechless for quite some time. he was dressed in all-white school uniform. he had a very healthy, fair skin. he looks very sweet. his face was glowing.

not long after that, i came across(again!) a girl that looked pretty familiar. when i looked at her face, i felt like i have seen her somewhere before but i still couldn't quite place my finger on it. when she smiled at me, i actually realized that she was from my previous school! we actually made a conversation. i smiled widely all the time when i'm talking to her(so does she!). she was the one who actually really recognized me. she said, "hey, isn't your mom who came to school to receive the certificates on your behalf?"

yes, that's what she asked me when the truth is that i NEVER talk to her before. hell, i didn't even know her name! i bet she didn't even know my name before.

so, my days have been pretty much lit up and i felt all goofy and giddy-giddy throughout the whole day!~

I've never been loved;
Even the littlest kindness
makes my heart flutter.

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Outsider

2009-06-14T15:28:00.002+08:00

additional mathematics exam was today. i don't know whether i should say i could answer it or not. what's done can't be undone. let's just wait for the result. i hope it will come out good(i know i don't deserve that because i never really deserve anything after all). to be honest, the test was 50/50. right now, i'm just hoping i won't fail~

at school, everything was boring as usual. i arrived very early today because today is my first day as an outsider. my class is kinda lame. today is pretty lame. hell, even my life is lame and pathetic.

exam

2009-06-14T02:52:00.000+08:00

I'll be sitting an exam in another four hours yet here I sit wasting my time surfing the internet aimlessly. I got two weeks of holiday for exam preparations but I didn't even touch a single book. How crazy is that? I think it's not too late. Hey, I got another four hours, right?